Reread a lot of this again.

Ridiculous. At times where I thought I was so unhappy...I should have been so much happier.

I need to make a major effort to lighten up. I mean, I can usually pass myself off as happy. But it's just passing myself off. And things can always be worse. I need to do like Grace said, and just make a major effort to cut all the negatives out of my life, and do what I feel needs to be done to make me happy.