Am I living my life in fast-forward?

I swear, I had an epiphany today...while on the school bus, no less.

It occured to me how much has been happening lately. September's but a blur to me. Since my brother left, I've been spending a lot of time to myself, away from others. It seems like school, where it was practically my life before, doesn't seem all that relevant. Sure, I'm still trying really hard to keep my grades up, but that's for college. It seems like just the thought of college has made me dismiss my last two years of high school. That, and since I'm going to be moving into town next year, (and consequently cheating my school, since I'll still be going to the community college) I won't be around my friends as much. Suddenly, it's like this house, this school, all of this doesn't matter that much. I won't even be around here much longer, and it's like there's not much of a point to continuing to try here. Suddenly, I realized this, and it occured to me how fast everything's been going. How I just keep going to school everyday, just like a habit, but not like I'm really focussing on it.

I dunno, it's weird.

Meh. I'm not really depressed at the thought. If anything, I'd like to start spending more time with my friends...unfortunately, that won't be until the end of football.

And, just as an afterthought, my Honors English grade is still low. Dang it.